It's a man's world, but women make it go around.
God, please come into our lives and work on us. You are what holds us together. I know we haven’t been on the best terms, but we are crazy for each other. You said, “It is not good that the man should be alone, I will make him an help meet for him.” Just like how you have forgiven me for my sins, I have forgiven my partner. Please give us the ability to not be bitter and angry and to spread love on each other. Protect us from temptations and trouble.
I am missing you insane….
They didn’t agree on much. In fact, they didn’t agree on anything. They fought all the time and challenged each other ever day. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common: they were crazy about each other.
(Source: my-shades-of-gray)
CHANGE
Dealing with change is very difficult. However, we all go through it. Some more than others. Recently, my father was diagnosed with cancer. It is called hypopharynx cancer. It’s a type of cancer in the neck. Rarely do the patients find out at an early stage. When one person in your family is terribly sick, everyone else is sick also. I took him to every appointment, so I knew everything that was going. I kept most of the things to myself because I didn’t want my mom and sister to panic. It was the worse decision I’ve ever made because I became so overwhelmed. I did what I could do to protect my family. Note that, I had very few support at the time. Sometimes, it was just too hard to sit there waiting long hours after surgeries or even at the emergency room. On some nights, I’d hold onto my blanket and cry myself to sleep. I have never felt so hopeless in my life. Every problem we had, i put it all aside and took care of my dad. You can’t stop taking care of someone when they say,”don’t let go of me.”
And then everything else started falling down on me. Everyone can relate when I say that “we can only be strong for so long” or “we can only take so much.” Enough is enough. Luckily, I knew a licensed therapist. After a few sessions, I accepted that I was beating myself up all along. I was borderline unhealthy. I was heart-broken. I was depressed. However, I took a turn. Now I am alone and ok. I feel like I could take the world by storm with this adrenaline rush. Ok, time to go back and work off all this stress because my sister is here.
P.S. I love you and I’m always thinking about you. You are in my prayers. Everyone and anyone can overcome a struggle. Remember to keep fighting!
Sometimes I question myself and others. Mom, how come you can’t buy me a nice car? Why do you lie to me about things? Why do you spend so much money? Why do assume that……? How could you question your child with that? Dad, why didnt you listen to my mom to save you all the hard times? Grandpa, how could you smile all the time knowing you were in so much pain? Friends, why didn’t anyone call or text me to give me comfort?
Now, I question MYSELF. Why have a nice car now when I could have a nice home later? It’s my mom’s hard earnings, so why can’t she spend it? Why do I yell at my mom when all she does is care? Why did I judge my dad knowing his brother passed and he was going through a tough time? Why did I even ask my grandpa that question? Why am I even expecting my friends to be there for me?
I can not even explain how blessed I am for EVERYTHING God has given me. I was too young-minded to understand or appreciate. I love my family to death.
